I want everyone reading this to know that one of the main reasons I am sharing my personal information on this blog is in order to share the fact that I am a “normal” human too, and go through the same type of stuff as everyone else.

Occasionally, people will say “oh that’s easy for you to say”, or they will say “well, you have a gift, life is easy for you!”

I just want to say that generally these statements couldn’t be farther from the truth. Stuff happens in my life too. As much as I share these posts to help you with your own stuff, I do not share them to get any sympathy or anything like that. I’m fine. I will always be fine. As will you. I just want to share on the off-chance that something that I write along the way will help you to see your own life from a different, more helpful perspective.

As most of you know, I’ve been doing less readings lately, probably a quarter (or maybe even less), than I used to do each month. I took some months off over summer to rejuvenate. Through the fall I have done some readings from those on my waitlist. I haven’t got to everyone yet, nor does it look like I will be through the list any time soon. I do not know if I will ever get to a point where I do as many psychic readings as I used to.

I like to do readings, to connect with the energy of all the wonderful people I meet weekly. Over the past year though, I have found I get very tired when I do them. My own guides and higher self have been telling me to stop for a while. I must admit, I don’t necessarily always listen any better than anyone else on the planet. “But I don’t want to stop”, I say, “I like doing readings”. However, I know that I must honour what I am being told and only do them when I truly feel I can.

My intention now, is to help more people on their own journeys in this lifetime with my blog and my writing. I’m hoping that some of the insights that you may read here will help you to connect with your own soul and guides.

Its really important to listen when your intuition is telling you something. Our Higher Selves know what we truly want, and our Soul has a way of helping things along for us. The trick is to listen and trust so that you don’t wind up in a position of discomfort along the way.

We have ultimate control over what happens with us, to us and for us. However, sometimes while manifesting something, if we remain unaware, or afraid, our Soul takes over and provides a jolt to get us moving in the direction we are trying to manifest.

On September 3, 2009 my husband fell down some stairs at work and broke his shin bone. Snapped it in half. The recovery for this is 4-6 months. We are partners in a construction company and he is the sole ‘worker’ on our jobsites.

Both of us have wanted him to hire someone else to help him as when we get busy with the company as there are days or sometimes weeks when we hardly see each other. I remember in 2007 wondering if we should drum up some more business. My husband said, “I have more work than I can handle, we don’t need more clients. Our Customer Service might suffer then”.

A lot of our business is about 1.5 hours drive from our home. In 2008, business was so brisk that we considered renting an apartment for my husband closer to the city to save him time, because he’d get home around 8:30 at night and leave at 5:30 the next morning. He was driving 3-6 hours a day. The gas savings alone would pay for an apartment easily. (Remember how expensive gas was that year?)

In February 2009, I first asked him if he wanted to hire someone else to help him. As there were issues with the global economy and there were less jobsites out there, he said, “No, what if I don’t have enough work to keep an employee busy”. I asked him a few times throughout 2009 if he wanted to hire someone as I felt a pull from him that he didn’t want to be working quite so hard in a physically demanding way. The answer was always “No, what if there isn’t enough work”.

Then while at my son’s soccer practice on a Thursday night my cell phone rang. It was my honey calling from an ambulance saying that he broke his leg. Of course my first thought was (sorry for the crudeness), “Oh my God, we’re screwed”. I’d like to point out that all in all 2009 wasn’t a very lucrative year for construction at all, and we were quite grateful to even still be in business as there were a lot of companies that no longer existed at this point. Also, I hadn’t been making much money for about 3 months by now.

Once my son’s soccer practice was over and we’d eaten dinner, and I had calmed down, we headed out for the one and a half hour drive to the hospital. Driving down the highway for that long in the dark is a great place to ponder and contemplate things and to meditate. By the time I got to the hospital I was quite excited! Me and my son got to my husband’s room, and after a brief period of me asking how he was and going through hearing the details of what happened etc., I said to my husband “I am so excited, this is wonderful! Finally we can hire someone and we will be able to spend more time together!!”

He was a little doped up by this time and looked at me like I was a little nuts. He’s lived with me for a long time though so it only took him a few minutes to get on board with my way of perceiving his accident.

Here is it 11 weeks or so later, and finally things are moving a little again. We went through a couple of months with no work, no employees, no accounts receivable, no income at all. Of course all the expenses of being self employed and just living in general were still there.

I’ve not been doing as many readings either, so my income isn’t exactly helping out a lot. I have never done readings just for the money. I can tell you, I could easily put myself out there and offer up a ton of more readings and make a lot of money. But, I know I’m not supposed to be doing so many, so I know darn well, that my ability to do quality readings would be hindered.

I truly think that the only difference between me and someone else in this situation is the way I perceive it. I look at what is going on, and how it will bring us closer to where we dream of being, rather than perceiving it as a negative thing. I truly believe that if my husband and I thought that this was a horrible thing, it would be a horrible thing. Instead, we took it more as an opportunity though. We put an ad in the paper in October and hired someone. He’s only working a few days here and there for us because right this minute we don’t have that much work for him. We have now gone ahead and started with our marketing plan to get more clients. As with any marketing plan, it can take a bit of time, and with starting now, by the time we get more business my husband will be back on his feet and we will have him and an employee to cover off all our customers and provide good service.

This is what we have wanted for a couple of years now. It never seemed to be a good time to go ahead and do it though. There was always a reason not to move forward with hiring, or expanding. All those reasons are of course based in fear, not trust. With my husband breaking his leg, it certainly provided a catalyst and motivation to move forward. For this I am grateful.

We have more bills, less savings, will likely have less “gifts” at Christmas, yet life feels so very good. There is movement. Movement towards what we have envisioned for ourselves. We have a lot more time to enjoy each other’s company that’s for sure.

Life truly is a wonderful gift, a fun game to play and can be as exciting and full, or as stressful and empty as we want it to be! It is our choice

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