As of yesterday, I am snowed in.  What that means is I have a little extra time on my hands to do some phone psychic readings.

The majority of my plans have been changed for the week to include a lot of time at home.  Most of the places I would go around here involve using my car and its hard to drive a sunfire safely in a foot and a half of snow.

So, if you’ve been holding off because you know January is one of my busy times, you don’t need to.  I’ve got more time for you in the next few days.

Love Tamara

Things are feeling well. I just love this time of year. It is amazing and beautiful how Mother Nature works. Just when the leaves are ready to be falling from the trees, the wind starts up and helps things along. We have had 3 or 4 windstorms over the last week.

Our lives are like that too, we just don’t often realize it. As humans we have a tendency to try and hang onto our leaves even though it is time for a change, time to live for a short time in emptiness, just like the trees.

Imagine if the trees tried to hold onto their leaves all winter. An impossible task to be sure, but that is what humans do. Even though they know its time for a change of seasons and scenery, they just hang on.

If only humans could let go as easily as the trees do. Spring ALWAYS comes, new leaves ALWAYS grow. There is always fresh and new and just as beautiful as it was before.

If you feel like you are experiencing a windstorm in your life, maybe its time to take a look at what its time to drop. You need to make space for the new to arrive in spring.

Now for an update on my status this week.
As most of you know that read my posts, I have my horse up for sale. He’s been taking up a fair bit of my time, which is fine by me. I have been swamped with emails from people wanting readings, which is also fine. I have been fitting in as many as possible over the last couple of weeks, however, I am waaaayyyyy behind in responding to requests. I have only been able to respond to you as I am able to book you in.

Now, my computer has decided to start crashing. I noticed about a month ago that there were a few people I had sent emails to that appear to not have received them. I thought it was an error on their end, perhaps that my mail had gone into their spam folder or something. However, on looking in my sent items, there is no email to them!! Their original email has an arrow on it showing I replied, but I can’t find it, nor can they.

That was the first symptom. Now the second is that my video and online radio stopped streaming on the weekend. Its been 3 days since I’ve been working on my PC but still haven’t got the issue resolved.

Now the reason for this post. This morning my computer completely crashed. The “Blue Screen of Death” popped up for no apparent reason and my PC shut down and re-started. I decided to put this post out there while I am able to.

I do all my bookings and such via email. Its not bad enough that I am behind in replying to you, now I need to take my PC into be serviced. I need things resolved once and for all. My PC memory and hardware are quite good, so its some software glitch somewhere (likely from upgrading from Vista to Windows 7). Anyway, if you are waiting to book a time with me, hopefully this explains why I’m so far behind this time.

With love,
Tamara

It is good though, not stressful at all, just busy and moving forward. I even managed some time for myself this past weekend. I spent almost the whole weekend at the barn. It seems like its been years since I’ve taken so much time for myself. I know it probably hasn’t been years, it just feels like it because I needed it so badly. I still have my horse for sale but I will be working with him until he finds a new home. I’m not desperate to sell him, just knowing that its time.

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Some of the highlights from the last newsletter are as follows:

I am taking on mentoring clients again. I had a really good deal mentioned in my Newsletter that won’t be repeated on my website, but I will have a mentoring page up online when I get the time. If you’ve been thinking about it and don’t want to wait until I get the page up, you can email me.

I have also decided to open my home to psychic kids and their parents to get together and talk about what is going on with them. It will likely be on Sundays, with registration at $25 per Sunday. I haven’t had enough interest in this yet to go ahead with setting a date, but once again, if you are reading this, and would like to take part, send me an email. I will get around to adding a page about this too.

I also talked again about developing your own abilities, to see more about this, you can check it out here. Developing your Psychic Abilities

That’s it for now, I’m off to do some readings, and then go see my horse after!!!

Have a great day!

Love
Tamara

Following is the Table of Contents from the book and the First Chapter.

As a psychic and medium, it has only been a few years since I, myself, have been meditating. My grandmother used to try to encourage me to mediate when I was a child but through the majority of my younger years, I did not have much interest in just sitting and being quiet and connecting in that way. I had way too much going on in my life to take the time out to just BE.

I would get all kinds of information and messages all the time anyway, I could see and hear Ascended Masters, teachers, guides and ancestors without any focus at all, what did I need to meditate for?

It wasn’t until I was in my late thirty’s that I decided to introduce meditation into my life, and truly, what a difference it made! With making a conscious effort to balance my energy and connect (almost) every day, suddenly I was getting even more information than I did before.

It improved my focus and my concentration, and even enabled me to see some health issues that were present in me that I had not been aware of before. With this new information, I started to work with my naturopath and doctor and am now on my way to better health.

My energies are now much more balanced, and I find I am actually able to get more out of my days. It is like time has expanded for me and I now have the time to do more of what is really important. Using these techniques will help you to achieve the same results.

Many of the techniques in this book were channeled during my own meditations. Originally my first book was not going to be about meditation at all. It was during my own meditations and channels that I was told I needed to share this information before writing about anything else, so that I could share with others, a way to work with and boost their own energies.

Meditation need not be difficult nor time consuming. However, initially you should spend ten to twenty minutes per day to become accustomed to your individual pattern of breathing, being aware of energies in and around you and how your chakras feel and affect different parts of your being. Once the technique is learned, meditation can be performed during your daily activities and in your own way.

I have set this book up in such a way that you can read through it once and then go back to the areas that you feel you need the most and focus there.

The Energy of Source, Universal Energy. Everything is connected by energy. Things are in form because of the way the energy particles bounce off one another. If the particles changed the way they move, the form would change. We are all connected to the Universal Energy, we are all a part of it. What affects one part of the energy in the Universe affects all parts of the Universal Energy. There are examples of this when people join together. Whether it is a group that gets together to pray and everyone can feel the positive energy flowing, or whether it.s a case of mass panic or a riot where people feed off of the negative (lower vibrating) energy of the whole. We all share in the energy of the whole. It can be compared to the ocean. The ocean is the ¡°whole¡±, like Universal Energy. Each drop of water is a part of that ocean, much like each person on earth is a part of the Universal Energy.

As the world goes through her shifts and changes, her people energetically feel the shifts and changes. The better your energy, the more positive, higher vibrating energy will be enjoyed by those around you and the world as the whole.

I think the first thing to understand is that everything is energy. Ch.i is the energy that permeates and flows through and around everything . When the Ch.i energy is balanced, life and surroundings are more comfortable. When Ch.i is out of balance or blocked, it can create discomfort and illness.

This book is meant to give you a basic understanding of your own energy and energy centres and explains how you can use meditation to work with and balance your own energy. It will not help you to change other people.s energy.

Once you do improve and balance your own energy, you will find that people around you and the things around you change. You can take more control of your life by controlling and balancing your energy. Once you understand the balancing of your energy and how it works, your perceptions of your own reality will change. This is a major event. If you look at things around you more closely, you will discover how they are changing. Just the act of looking at something changes it. Even an atom will change just by you observing it. For those of you who would like a more scientific, logical explanation of how this occurs, it is Quantum Physics, which we will not go into in this book for obvious reasons.

Once you get involved in meditating and becoming aware of your energy centres, known as Chakras, it will feel almost magical. We have the ability to create our own realities and impact things around us with our energy. We cannot make other people do or be or behave in a certain way! I cannot stress this enough. You cannot manipulate other people. To try to do so, can change our own energy in unhealthy ways. However, we do have the ability to change the way we see things and infuse loving energy into situations and relationships ourselves. This enables us to notice what is really going on in and around us and act with more love in our daily lives, rather than constantly re-acting, generally from a place of fear. Love is yet another key to happiness. As we “reap what we sow”, when we give loving energy, we then receive loving energy in return.

When I speak of giving and receiving loving energy, it is not just with our close relationships. You will notice a difference in all your interactions with everyone around you, whether it is the clerk at your local store, co-workers, bosses, or anyone you come in contact with in your daily life.

As you are more infused with loving energy, you begin to vibrate at a higher, lighter level of energy. As you vibrate at a higher, lighter level of energy, lower vibrations are no longer attracted to you.

Wow, its been a long time since I have done a blog post. I won’t promise anything, but I am hopeful that I will be writing more over the next little while.

All is well at the moment. I had a bit of a tough spring but things seem to be improving for me now. I had some pain issues, some fatigue issues, some depression issues…it seems to be ongoing but it is much much better than it was. I now have a new understanding for people who are going through chronic pain issues. Perhaps what I went through was a way for me to understand this better.

Early in the year I actually thought that maybe my time here was done.   I thought maybe it was time to go home.  Since then, things have been steadily improving and I am feeling quite healthy and happy most days.

I am now putting 15 minute readings on hiatus. As it stated on the Psychic Readings page of my site, the 15 minute readings were temporary and it is now time for me to stop offering them for a short time.

I haven’t been doing many in-person readings either. I may resume these full speed in the fall but I am not totally sure yet. I am still available for phone and email readings though.

As a society we have been going through a lot of shifts and changes of late. There are more to come but if enough of us on our planet can hold the light and the love we will come through it just fine.

For me personally, I am an extreme empath. I have been doing a lot of work on how to protect myself from unwanted energies. It is a work in progress. It doesn’t seem to matter what is going on in our world, I feel it. I feel it deeply and it can take a lot for me to block certain things out, and on occasion, things that I would rather not have in my energy wind up there and it can take a while for them to be cleared. I occasionally get outside help with this and it seems to make quite a difference. Sometimes the help comes from my guides and angels on the other side, and just as often, the help comes from a human angel.

I just want to thank all of you for the love you bring to the world, and the love you have sent my way over the past few months. It was felt and is appreciated.

Until next time…hold your love and your light…

All is okay with me, there’s nothing wrong, just some things that I have had going on that have kept me from writing as many blog posts and from getting to some emails.

At this time I am not doing in-person readings. I haven’t actually done one since December of last year. I will likely resume the in-person readings at some point, but I really have no idea when.

I am going to have a special through March 2011 for anyone who would like to book a one hour phone reading. It will only apply to One Hour phone readings.

If you book with me via email and pay for your reading before the end of March 2011, a one hour phone reading will be $200.00.
(That is a 20% discount off the regular price.)

I got back from my trip to Phoenix and decided that I needed to try and fit everyone in ~ preferably all within a two week period.

I am thinking that the Universe had other plans for me. Last Friday, while at the barn I hurt my knee, quite badly actually. I was walking out of the barn, and someone tugged a hose that I was walking over and I went flying. Landing right on my knee. I spent three days just reading books on my recliner with my leg up. That was fine. I had bought a couple of books in Phoenix that I wanted to read anyway so it was nice to have a “forced” couple of days off to do just that.

Once my leg felt good enough to be able to sit at my PC, (on Sunday/Monday) I started to get back to some people about readings, doing what I could to book people in. I was well on my way to having some things booked when my PC got a virus. A very unusual occurrence for me because I have my PC set up like Fort Knox. I worked on it myself for a day, all day Monday, but just couldn’t get rid of it. The next morning I called my Anti-Virus provider and they helped clear everything up. Apparently there was something wrong with their software, a glitch that they are working on. I won’t mention them here, because I really like their product, have used it for years, and don’t want to give them any bad press. They were super helpful and had me back up and running quickly (once I got into an online chat with them).

Then we got to later in the day on Tuesday. We are going through a cold snap at the moment. Very cold. I don’t do well in the cold so I had been thinking that I would get a bunch of stuff (and phone readings), done through this week. I could stay home, work, avoid going to the barn where its freezing, and still feel like I was being productive. It was a great plan (or so I thought). That’s when the power started going off. I consider us very lucky because it didn’t go off and stay off for days or anything. Our house is staying reasonable warm, we haven’t had to pull out the generators and none of our food has spoiled. On Monday evening, we even just played board games as a family by flashlight which proved to be quite a bit of fun!

However, the power has been going off quite regularly for about 45 hours or so. So while trying to be productive, I’ve had the power go off in the middle of sending an email, in the middle of trying to get rid of a computer virus, in the middle of blog posts, phone calls, you name it. Pretty much everything I have “planned” to do over the last week or so has been completely shut down.

YOU THINK I WOULD LEARN!!! I’m not a big believer in coincidences. I’ve had lots of Angels around me for about a month too. I know they are there to help me through something, I just haven’t figured out what yet. Apparently though, it has very little to do with work. I say this, because every time I try to work something happens. I’m even saving this blog post every couple of sentences just in case the power goes out again ~ I don’t want to lose it all. I am sure if I write something that I’m not supposed to the power will go out and I’ll lose it anyway.

Another interesting thing is that I am not the only one who fell down last week. In less than a 24 hour period me, my mom, and my sister all took a dive. My sister first, the night before me (she lives in Alberta and I didn’t even know until yesterday that she fell), and my mom slipped on ice about 8 hours after I had my fall (she is okay too). I should also say that the three of us are VERY close.

I toyed with the idea that “stuff happens”, and that maybe it was a coincidence. However, we all ‘see things’, get ‘signs’ regularly, and none of us believe in coincidences. We decided that we would each meditate on it and see if anything came up.

In the meantime, I decided to just draw a Rune out of my Rune bag…not something I do very often, just once in a while on a whim. I drew “Perth”, the Rune of Initiation, reversed. I read what it said but wasn’t certain it applied so I just left it for a bit. A few hours later I decided that I’d pop onto this divination website I know of and see what it would say if I just drew a Rune there. The question I asked both times was “What is it that all three of us need to know, what were the ‘falls’ trying to tell us”.

Anyway, guess what? I got the exact same Rune, Reversed. This is what my Rune book says:

A counsel against expecting too much, or expecting in the ordinary way, for the old way has come to an end: You simply cannot repeat the old and not suffer. Reversed, this rune puts you on notice to call in your scattered energies and concentrate on your own life at this moment, your own requirements for growth. More important “Perth” counsels you not to focus on outcomes, not to bind yourself with the memory of past achievements; in so doing, you rob yourself of a true present, which is the only time in which self-change can be realized.
You may feel overwhelmed with exhaustion from meeting obstruction upon obstruction in your passage. Yet you always have a choice: you can see all the apparent negativity as “bad luck” or you an recognize it as an obstacle course, a challenge specific to the initiation you are presently undergoing. Then each setback, each humiliation, becomes a test of character. When your inner being is shifting and reforming on a deep level, patience, constancy and perseverance are called for. So stay centred, see the humor, and carry on regardless.

I think this is pretty cool. Seems to apply to this past week quite well. So here is where I stand. I am taking a few days off. Almost completely. Hopefully “almost” will be good enough. I do have some things that I need to do and I will take care of those. I have some people that I really need to email back because they’ve been waiting for a while (you know who you are). I will give it a shot, however I am not prepared to make any promises at this point.

I am going to Vegas at the beginning of December with a group of women from the barn. Its the National Rodeo Finals and I expect it will be a lot of fun. There’s only a week left in this month, so it could very well be after my return that I actually get readings booked. I give up trying to control it. I hand it over to God and my Angels to take care of, I am sure they will let me know when I’ve got the “all clear” to fit in some more readings. Whether its next week, or December, or January, all I know for certain, is that it will happen for me (and for you), if and when the time is right.

Thanks for reading, with love, Tamara

If it takes me a while to get back to you, please do not take it personally. I do everything I can not to get your ‘stuff’ when I get your e-mail so it is very very rare, when I get an email and think – ‘that person has weird/bizarre/negative energy, I better not engage their energy’. As a matter of fact that has happened probably a total of about 3 times in my life. If you take into account that I get hundreds (maybe thousands, I’ve never really counted them all) of e-mails a year, if I haven’t got back to you in a timely manner it likely has more to do with me than it does to do with you.

I am forever talking about us creating our own reality.

Here is the reality I have tried (and mostly succeeded), in creating.

The list could go on and on and on.

The way I have set things up for myself is simple. If I am too tired to sit at my computer, or to reply to an email or to do a quality reading, I won’t do it. Its pretty easy and straightforward.

Some people may think that this means I do not care about you. That couldn’t be farther from the truth actually, I do care. I have just chosen to care about myself as much as I care about you. That is a hard one for a lot of people to get their mind around. Self care. Wow, aren’t we supposed to put others before ourselves?

Yes and no. I put my son and his needs before my own (only to the extent that me being his mother requires though). If he wants me to help him clean his room or do his laundry (hardly life threatening), and I want to go to the barn and ride my horse – my needs come first. If he wants me to fix his dinner because he just played soccer for four hours and I’m sitting and reading a book, I would likely put his need for dinner before my need to relax. It is all about priorities.

Here I am almost getting off-topic again. I’ve always got so much to say, it is sometimes hard for me to just “get to the point” (something my wonderful husband can certainly relate to I’m sure).

Back to replying to e-mails and such. Two years ago I was in really rough shape. I could not do more than one thing a day, usually in the morning. Which meant, if I did readings in the morning, I could not vacuum the house (as a matter of fact, I usually didn’t even have the energy to fix myself lunch). If I went to the barn to ride, I would do so and come home and sleep. If I had to go out in the evening, I did nothing all day and then had a nap that afternoon just so I had enough energy to leave the house. I weighed 30 pounds more than I do now, I was pale, had black circles under my eyes all the time, was impatient with my family, and felt horrible almost every day. I ended up taking about 8 months off from doing any readings at all.

I took some time for me and got myself healthier. I worked with my naturopath, my doctor, my family, and my guides. I got some rest, I meditated a lot. I actually took some time out for myself.

This leads me to here. For the most part I feel good on any given day. As I wrote above, I have the reality that I have worked for years to create. Sometimes the creation process felt hard, sometimes it felt easy. Most of the time whether it was easy or difficult was just the way I was perceiving it at the time.

The simple reason for me occasionally taking my time to get back to you is that I am caring for myself too. I don’t have an assistant that can get back to you. I have tried auto-responders but that didn’t work for me. More often than not I do not know how I will be feeling, or what I will feel like doing three weeks from now, so I don’t like to book that far in advance.

When I have a day or a few days where I am doing a lot of readings it tires me out. Plain and simple. I used to think that if I was so good at creating my reality and if I was so practiced at energy work I should be able to simply connect to Source Energy and voila, I’d be fine.

Fact is, they tire me out. Sometimes I become a bit of a hermit for a few days (or longer). Don’t talk to anyone on the phone, don’t go out of the house. Just sit and flop and rest. Can’t even get my mind and energy around writing or reading or hanging with my family or riding my horse. I just flop, zone out and regenerate.

I don’t mind doing this sometimes. One of the reasons I came here on this trip to Earth was to do my readings. I want to help people, I like my work. I have just made a concious decision that I cannot do this every week of my life. In the past few months I actually felt like I had “got a life”. Its a really nice feeling, and I would like to keep it. Had I kept doing what I was doing a couple of years ago I would likely either be in a hospital or a loony bin, or just sitting on the couch doing nothing, weighing 600 pounds. The years I have left to share messages would be gone. At the rate things are going now, I will likely be writing and sharing and educating for many years to come. I like that reality a lot better than martyrdom and thinking that I always have to put others first, even to the detriment of myself.

My e-mail wasn’t working yesterday. My ISP is Telus and apparently lightning struck some of their equipment in Edmonton and put their e-mail servers down all over the place. Interesting how small the world is getting, here I am on the Coast of BC and a lightning strike in Edmonton can shut me down for over 24 hours.

If you sent me an email in the past couple of days, you may need to re-send it, as I know that I missed quite a few. I am not sure if they are ‘out there’ somewhere and I will eventually get them, or if they are gone forever.

On the positive side of this, I ended up going to the barn and riding my horse. I have been working a lot lately. As much as I haven’t posted as many blog entries as usual in the past month or two I have been busy doing readings and tending to e-mails and just being busy with all the paperwork I have on a daily basis. I have only been riding once a week since June. My horse is getting a little hyper and unruly, he’s a Thoroghbred and they are bred for racing so they need a lot of exercise, which I haven’t been able to do lately. (Or…more likely, I just haven’t made the time to do lately ~ we do create our own stuff after all).

It was nice to have a day where there was nothing I could do on-line. Every time I thought about what I had to do, it was related to sitting at my PC and that wasn’t going to work yesterday. It gave me a great opportunity to just get out of the house and enjoy nature and my horse for a while. I didn’t have a choice but to let go of work for a day.

It did me a world of good, and I am grateful to the Universe for providing a much needed rest for me.

Its funny too. Well, I guess not ‘funny” haha, but yet another example of the Universe providing what we need, and us manifesting what we require. My husband had quite a lot of work lined up and was feeling like he was working too hard. There was quite a bit of paperwork for him to do, and he’s been trying to find the time to build content for his website and get some things in order. Well, he put his back out a bit yesterday. Nothing major, but it will likely be a week before he can go out and do the heavy stuff. What a perfect opportunity for him to get things done that he’s wanted to do around the office.

Next time something appears to go sideways for you, stop and look at it closely. What have you wanted to do, or be, or accomplish that you haven’t made the time for? If you look at it from a different perspective, can you see how you may have created exactly what you wanted? Now that things don’t appear to be as you planned them, what can you do with what you have now in your experience of your life? Think of something postive, get going on it, and focus on what you can do, not on what you can’t!

We had a big party last weekend, end of the school year, kick off the summer, birthday party for both me and my husband (we were born 3 days apart). We had 42 people here, and 12 stayed until the next day. It was a really good time and it is something that we do at the end of June every year.

No, I didn’t over-do it and take a week to recover

It’s just that getting ready for so many people to come and visit, and then cleaning up afterwards, and trying to get back to normal can sometimes put other things on the back burner. I was also quite booked up with readings last week and didn’t get much down time to just relax and write.

So, hopefully, this week I will be able to focus on getting things a little more caught up, and have a great blog post or two to share.

In Love and Gratitude,
Tamara