Tamara Hawk – Psychic, Medium

Posts Tagged ‘live in the now’

Boy oh boy energies and things have been strange lately.  For me, and for a lot of my clients that I have talked to.  Its as if we are all waiting for something to happen.  There has been a lull.  Many of us know that things are as they are meant to be and that we will be okay.  Some would call it faith, some would call it a knowing, or connection to Source that they feel that all is as it should be, or at least that change is coming.

Its just this darn 3D world that messes us up sometimes.  As we slowly come out of the recession, many of us feel like we just can’t take anymore.  We’ve been beaten down, and things have felt like they just aren’t picking up.  So many are either out of work, or are just getting back to work, or are working for less than they were before.   Even my husband’s concrete cutting company has been slow.  Its picking up, but when he’s at a job site, almost everyone he talks to has been in the same boat, work is coming, its just not quite here yet.

Some are losing faith, but please try not to. While you are waiting for the new to show up, do what you can right now, with the old stuff.  Have you got a lot of clutter in your house that needs to be cleared out?  Things you have been thinking of doing but didn’t have the time to do before?  Its these times of lull that are the best for revaluating and realigning with your higher self and clearing out the stuff that you don’t need anymore, the stuff that is no longer serving your highest and best good.

I know all too well how hard it can be to motivate yourself when things feel like they are falling apart all around you.  When I find myself in that spot ~ I pray, I meditate, I pray more, I pray a lot.  I ask for help.  Sometimes the help I ask for is just to get through today.  I don’t always ask for specific things ~ I ask for feelings, the feeling that I want to have is calmness ~ even when life is at its stormiest for me.  I don’t ever want to lose the faith, I don’t ever want to lose the connection to Source, or to lose what makes me who I am.

Today is a stormy day here in BC.  It feels so very cleansing, I think I might even just go out in the back yard and sit (rain or not), and let the wind just clear away all the crap that’s built up lately. And maybe I’ll pray while I’m out there.

I am usually pretty good at being in the moment, and practicing awareness.  However, the past little while has been a bit of a challenge for me.  I have had tons of stuff going on and I’ve sometimes wondered how I can do it all.

My Aunt passed away on January 8th, after a very brief yet intense illness.  Her and I were very close, she was my mentor, my confidant, my friend.  We had a “Celebration of Life” for her on Sunday.

As I wrote a few weeks ago, my husband broke his leg in September and has been off work since.  He went for surgery yesterday to have pins removed.

Tomorrow, my son has dental surgery for a growth he’s got on his gums.  Likely not too serious, but they have to knock him out and a mom worries anyway.

This Friday night I am participating in a paranormal investigation.  My first with a new P.A.R.A. team.  Very exciting.  I will let you know how it goes once all is said and done.

I’ve had tons of e-mails coming in and I’m working on booking in readings from those that are still on my waitlist.

Over the past while my horse has been slightly neglected.  I say slightly because I keep him at a barn where they take awesome care of him.  He’s well fed, gets put out in the morning to romp around and is brought in and kept warm and dry at night.  I have been trying to get down to exercise him but its been a challenge over the past while.  He grounds me, keeps me in the moment and I can’t help but Practice Awareness when I am with him but I haven’t been to the barn since Saturday.  Over the last month I have only been down to the barn just enough to keep him from going crazy from lack of attention. Thinking that I absolutly must get to see him on Thursday.

So, here I was, this Tuesday morning, I was happily going along my way and getting ready for the day.  I had booked four clients in today starting at 9:30 a.m.  I got up early, had my workout and shower and was having a cup of coffee before taking my son to school.  My husband had to leave the house and needed help with the truck.  I often will help to lift things into or out of the truck with him, normally not a problem.

This particular morning I was feeling a little rushed, seeing how many emails I could answer before my appointments started.  I was thinking about all the things I had to do, the things I had done, what I needed to get done later, and what I could rush through to get to where I wanted to be.  A typical case of rushing around too much and not being in the moment.

So I went outside with my husband and proceeded to grab one side of a very heavy piece of equipment, and halfway through lifting it I got the most intense pain in my back.  Ouch.  I could hardly move.  I hobbled into the house and tried to stretch it out a bit but it didn’t work.  I then popped a couple of Robax Platinum’s hoping that that would help to relax the muscle.

Suffice to say, I ended up cancelling my readings for the day…I couldn’t even get down the stairs to where I do readings, never mind actually sit with someone without wincing or groaning. 

I said to my husband “I wonder if someone is trying to tell me something?”  I must say, I know we create our own “stuff” ~ good and bad.  He pointed out that normally when I am going to lift something like that I stretch and bend and make a big production of limbering up beforehand and today I didn’t. 

I’m a thinker, always looking for a higher meaning to things.  I considered that my higher self didn’t want me to be doing readings today, or that I was meant to be doing something else with my day.

When it comes right down to it though, its just AWARENESS.  I got too much into my head, and autopilot, and rushing to get things done and didn’t take the time to get ready and lift properly.  That’s it.  Not divine intervention, not a curse, not anything, just ME. 

A great reminder for me to be in the moment and Practice My Awareness.